Ode to pub lunches

Walking in the New forest
seems like a good idea
until it starts to rain
Driving to the nearest pub
and eating yummy lunch
oh my, what a shame....

Welcome to the fouth year

Despite passing my exams and having the summer in africa, it still surprised me somewhat to find myself actually being in the 4th year of medicine. Good surprise or bad? I have still yet to find out... I've already had 2 weeks of placement, 1 GP session and about a month on and off of project work and I still don't much feel like I want to be here. On the other hand, I have no clue as to what on earth I would do if I weren't here so I shouldn't complain.

In my alternate reality, what would I be doing? I would not be writing a blog. I would not be apathetic towards medicine and life in general. I would maybe be working now....or I might be about to go on a ski season. I might be famous. I might be thin. I might feel good about myself. I probably wouldn't. The grass is always greener on the otherside don't you think? Medicine, to the outside eye, is bloody good thing to be doing with your life.

This afternoon I have my second GP session and I should probably do some work so that he doesn't think I am a complete failure/fraud. Then I need to get going with my project....which is actually pretty interesting when you think about it, and once it gets ethics approval (please God, please) then it will be be a worthwhile use of my time. More worthwhile than facebook and blogging anyway. Plus I get to hang out on NICU with the tiny babies which never fails to make you feel a little bit good. Last time I went on a ward round there, one of the babies was crying and I held their hand and they stopped. Feel-good factor or what?!

Get back to work slacker...